Playing Catch-Up

There is nothing more frustrating than having an ambitious mind filled with ideas and dreams but not being able to fulfil them. My body seems to always be playing catch-up and isn’t quite on the same page.

Recently I have been experiencing a lot of stomach problems which has become debilitating, stopping me from living my everyday life. There doesn’t seem to be any rhyme or reason why this is happening and it’s so erratic. As you can imagine I have had countless tests, doctors’ appointments, consultation calls, etc to try and get to the bottom of it but so far there has been no progress. I have been told that it is a waiting game and I know that I have to be patient.

Patience is something I have in bounds, always have but when it comes to my health, it is starting to wear a little thin. There is a lot of frustration when you have a chronic health condition. There are always new symptoms presenting themselves, or old ones coming back to kick ass. It’s a constant fight to find answers, to find a reason, to find a cure. However, I am beginning to see that the reality is that this is just the way it’s going to be.

Despite my last sentence, I always have that little glimmer of hope. The hope that things will get better, that what I am feeling is going to pass and that I will get back to doing the things I love. But the struggle now is real, I feel it upon waking up in the morning and going to bed at night. Wondering when things will start to improve and when I can start living my life again.

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